bobcat8
LIFE HAS MADE YOU MY DAUGHTERS... BUT LOVE HAS MADE US FRIENDS (FOREVER)
~ THE NATURAL ORDER... CONTINUED ~
mindsay"No man ever steps in the same river 'twice'... for it's not the same river and he's not the same man..."
~ Heraclitus
I need no introduction in this Mindsay community... therefore I will dispatch with the cursory pre-amble.
To suggest that I have returned to Mindsay as the proverbial Phoenix, rising out of my own ashes to relish in my re-birth; perhaps is not so optimistic as it is terribly premature.
Save for but a few devoted stalwarts... those whom I love much in this community and who have been tremendously loyal to me, my little family and our very modest trials... you (at large), won't know who I am... and nor should you be entirely interested either.
My return here shall be nothing shy of 'self-serving' in it's motives...
This re-connection needs to be recuperative and cathartic by design... I make no apologies for this.
I have left a footprint here at Mindsay... and that legacy will belong to my daughters and my wife.
I begin anew... I alone on this earth hold the key to which our little history awaits.
As God wills it... I will turn towards change... embracing every wretched turn of this key...
I matter very little in the vast overall scheme of things to come... and I hold no particular monopoly upon wisdom.
But to my ability to walk this world with humility and compassion... and to the world belonging to my daughters...
I matter a great deal.
The following short penning will have to suffice as "news" for the time being.
My seemingly quick evaporation from Mindsay some months back was necessary in order to create separation.
Separation, so that we could attend very devotedly to the cardiac issues developed by my flower, my eldest daughter Shannon.
To this, I stepped from my world to ensure hers... and the boundless, timeless link to her younger two sisters.
(abandoned, quite reluctantly and decidedly sorrowfully, were our adoption plans for Ahanna...)
I will, I know... never do anything more profoundly significant in my life... than see to my daughter's death.
We, as a family... gave up my Shannon during the night of June 4th... this year, 2008.
To those of you who hold our intimacies... you know well of my daughters' history.
That they have had their turn at massive change before...
This July 15th... they will mark the beginning of their fourth year without Mommy... who was violently stolen from their infancies by a drunk driver.
(when sleep returns to my world... I will at least have my nightmares free of Shannon being all alone and frightened... I know now God, that Your plan was to ensure that one of us was going be wherever our children were, are or will be... forever and forever).
This will not be a forum for updates on Shelby and Kendall... each is terribly empty... Shannon will not be replaced at any turn... on any level.
It was their Mommy's legacy that her daughters were sisters first... last... and always... this was to be their ever-enduring link to God... to their Mother and to one another.
As God is my witness...I will see to this...
as I step into the river for the first time... again.
God Bless you all.
To suggest that I have returned to Mindsay as the proverbial Phoenix, rising out of my own ashes to relish in my re-birth; perhaps is not so optimistic as it is terribly premature.
Save for but a few devoted stalwarts... those whom I love much in this community and who have been tremendously loyal to me, my little family and our very modest trials... you (at large), won't know who I am... and nor should you be entirely interested either.
My return here shall be nothing shy of 'self-serving' in it's motives...
This re-connection needs to be recuperative and cathartic by design... I make no apologies for this.
I have left a footprint here at Mindsay... and that legacy will belong to my daughters and my wife.
I begin anew... I alone on this earth hold the key to which our little history awaits.
As God wills it... I will turn towards change... embracing every wretched turn of this key...
I matter very little in the vast overall scheme of things to come... and I hold no particular monopoly upon wisdom.
But to my ability to walk this world with humility and compassion... and to the world belonging to my daughters...
I matter a great deal.
The following short penning will have to suffice as "news" for the time being.
My seemingly quick evaporation from Mindsay some months back was necessary in order to create separation.
Separation, so that we could attend very devotedly to the cardiac issues developed by my flower, my eldest daughter Shannon.
To this, I stepped from my world to ensure hers... and the boundless, timeless link to her younger two sisters.
(abandoned, quite reluctantly and decidedly sorrowfully, were our adoption plans for Ahanna...)
I will, I know... never do anything more profoundly significant in my life... than see to my daughter's death.
We, as a family... gave up my Shannon during the night of June 4th... this year, 2008.
To those of you who hold our intimacies... you know well of my daughters' history.
That they have had their turn at massive change before...
This July 15th... they will mark the beginning of their fourth year without Mommy... who was violently stolen from their infancies by a drunk driver.
(when sleep returns to my world... I will at least have my nightmares free of Shannon being all alone and frightened... I know now God, that Your plan was to ensure that one of us was going be wherever our children were, are or will be... forever and forever).
This will not be a forum for updates on Shelby and Kendall... each is terribly empty... Shannon will not be replaced at any turn... on any level.
It was their Mommy's legacy that her daughters were sisters first... last... and always... this was to be their ever-enduring link to God... to their Mother and to one another.
As God is my witness...I will see to this...
as I step into the river for the first time... again.
God Bless you all.
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